This project represents far more than a mere documentation of events; it encapsulates a deeply personal odyssey through the realms of healing, connection, and self-discovery during a time of profound crisis. This project germinated from my own experiences, during which the rituals that had once anchored me—simple yet profound acts of engaging eyes, touch, and loving words—were stripped away, leaving a void that cried out for healing and reconnection.

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The crisis I found myself in was not a random twist of fate; it was a consequence of a conscious decision to stand up for myself, establish boundaries, and authentically live in accordance with my values. Little did I anticipate that this courageous step would set off a cascade of events, catapulting me into the depths of burnout and severing connections I had assumed would stand the test of time. The loss of friends and family, the very pillars of my support system, left me questioning my own reality.

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This profound sense of loss, both external and internal, initiated a journey of self-discovery that revealed facets of myself I had long buried beneath layers of conformity and societal expectations. The crisis shattered my sense of reality, threatening to dissolve my grip on the world. Yet, paradoxically, it also became the crucible for a profound transformation.

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Amidst the chaos and uncertainty, rituals became lifelines, threads of intention weaving connection and crafting sacred spaces for togetherness and unity, fostering a bond with both myself and the world. Each component of this project was meticulously fashioned as a deliberate act of self-care, anchoring me when reality teetered on the brink of collapse. These pieces functioned as bridges, spanning the past, present, and future—a tapestry interwoven with memories, emotions, and expressions, encapsulating the very essence of these profound rituals.

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With each of these pieces, I embarked on a journey to unpack my trauma and navigate the chaos that had engulfed my life. Each piece served as a stepping stone on the path out of the tumultuous sea and toward the shores of recovery and integration. Guided by the principles of pleasure and healing, I employed rituals such as breathwork and meditation, actively engaged in community groups, shared my story, and took the courageous step of opening up to myself and everyone around me about my lifelong struggles with depression. These rituals became essential tools for reestablishing a profound connection with both myself and the essence of life itself.

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Rituals is not merely documentation; it is a testament to my resilience and the resilience of the human spirit. It chronicles my journey from a shattered reality in search of a place of healing and self-discovery. This project underscores the vital role of rituals in providing solace, facilitating healing, and celebrating my innate capacity to find meaning, even in the darkest of times.